I’ve been writing Ghost of You for around four years now. Maybe longer. I’ve taken breaks from writing it because it deals heavily with depression, loss, grief, and dark emotions that I had a tendency to struggle with. Writing certain scenes would send me in a downward spiral crashing myself back at rock bottom.
But I hit a milestone with my mental health.
I wrote an emotion-fueled scene where my main character finally deals with the emotions and thoughts she kept buried in her head. A full-blown breakdown with 5 years worth of ignored feelings, thoughts, and memories.
And I didn’t break down myself.
I’m so excited about this! I was able to keep myself in check while digging deep into my personal experiences to fuel my writing. It was amazing. I wrote raw, heartbreaking material without breaking my own heart.
Hitting this milestone reminds me that I’m finally getting to where I need to be. I’m stronger than I was 10 years ago. I’m going to be alright. I feel that my struggle with my mental health isn’t a rickety bridge over a lava filled canyon. It’s more of a attainable mountain climb.
I just had to tell you all.
Did any of you have a moment that made you realize you were going to be alright? A moment of clarity where you saw how much you’ve grown and changed? Comment below!